Brothers who Loved
My youngest Brother Peter now deceased,,,2017
Hmm no not recces.. We went into ops with them when I was ops medic.. But no. I'm glad I was not a killer recce.. They were all very crazy..
I was simply with mechanised infantry in Ratels.
Tam was a really top platoon leader of groups in operational areas. A much better soldier than me but he turned bossies one day and was returned to base after serious conflict trauma.
Peter heard about all the glowing achievements by his two elder brothers and it affected his self esteem but still made him proud I think.
That was the problem with Peter all along was that he always compared himself as youngest brother with the feats achieved by his two older brothers.. He never got his fair share of praise.. The drugs made it even worse.. And he was always the bad apple.. But still the best personality.. Everyone liked him and he could cook up a storm with nothing.. He had a huge gift.. So. I look back on it and see how many mistakes I made with Peter without realizing it. How hard he tried to impress me when I didn't have time to see.
Everything he did he showed me and always gave me do much respect.. More than anyone else.. And I didn't realize what it was.. Only now.. Too late.
Yes he was always so openly proud of me at SACS school where I was before him. And then during army where I did well too.. Then also in Iraq where I had much success and many adventures.. And then was jailed for 25 years where I endured the most horrific ten years before I was finally pardoned. Peter was on the whatsapp all the time supporting me and was proud of me there too as I turned the worst situation to benefit and achieved much global support. Peter never faltered in his belief in me when many, including my other brother... The embassy, my ex wife and a lot of friends.. Fairly trusted the verdict of the Arab state over my muted and stifled version of events.
Pete knew..He was the only one that I had told about everything... He took it all with him forever..
I miss him so much now..
